A Love Away

i came to work as usual this morning, made my milo and everything seemed normal.

at exactly 8:45am, my mobile rang. the id caller showed 'mummy'. that's funny, she never calls at this time of the day. the conversation went...

language used : cantonese
mum : lei hai pin tou ah? (where are you?)
me : hai office lo, cho meh? (i'm in the office, why?)
mum : thai thai hui cho (great grandma passed away)
me : kei si? (when?) burst into tears
mum : kam jiu hou jou (early this morning)
me : kam tim? mou yan jiong office (so how? noone jaga office)
mum : mou siong kon. kam man hui oak khei (nevermind, tonight we'll go to her house)
me : hmm, ok lo

after hanging up, i cried so much. and thought what an idiot i am. i should have been with her more. i should go see her more often.

i am no good at loosing someone, moreover she was someone so important to me. i treasure her, i am so glad & proud to have a great grandma who lived till 105. she has been through the war, seen the beginning of the new millenium, dine with her five generations.... she has seen everything.

i called koh koh, it's so hard to convey a message like this, i dunno how to say, just cried. then uttered out, "thai thai mm hai tou jo". he cried too. i know he hurts as much. we all love her. i missed her so so much.

i cried and still crying...