VANISHED!

another year have passed and i still feel the same. sometimes in life when we were young, we want to start working and be accepted amongst the older fellas, now that i am getting old, i wish i could have done more during my teens or in my 20's. i never regretted in marrying ronnie, but i wished i had just waited a little longer to learn and experience more about life/relationship before i jumped in. i used to ponder why couples split after a year or two of their marriage. Don't they ever think why in the first place they got married, dont they ever think why they chose that man that is sleeping next to them for? but now i know, its not really up to one to decide, things happen and sometimes the paths that is in front of us just doesn't really allow us to turn back, eventhough if you are to turn back it will not be the same anymore. it would be for the sake of people and relatives around us.

at any point in time, have you ever sat in a mamak or coffee shop and realise that there is just nomore conversation with your partner? all u guys can talk about is your kids, the sports rim on the chinese fella's car that just pulled up in front of you, the sky looks dark and it is going to rain soon, there is a new Raoul shop in Bangsar Village, the milk powder is cheaper in TMC than in Groccers, Mrs Tan's son Ryan was kicked out of school for scolding the teacher...blah..blah...blah...

is it me or does it happen to everyone? where has it VANISHED to?