dragon tiger door gate

yesterday went to buy 6 tickets. unfortunately, there were 4 in the back row, 2 in the front. being the purchaser, i get the privilege to keep the back row seats. so it's up to the other 2 couples to choose...

i met up with them and pass them the remaining 4, and told them the situation. obviously, none of them wanted to sit in the front row. uncle & i kept quiet and didnt wanna interfere with their choice.

just before we went in, sin took the "J" seats leaving the "C" for vp. vp was disappointed as she drove all the way from seputeh and was the first to arrive.

we went in and vp straight away headed to the front rows, when kl stopped her saying the row "C" was the 3rd row from the back. so poor thing sin & johnny had to sit 2 rows from the screen. we all had a good laugh, but it's not too bad though. we enjoyed the movie...

and before we left, johnny did something so so funny, we laughed our hearts out.

a girls' night out

after much deliberation, we finally end up in chillis - bangsar shopping complex. my beloved hubby uncle sent me there. we had a drink with od & rena before he left. we then moved to chillis.

od, rena, vp, julie & i were the first few to reach. we ordered our food. then sin came after 15minutes, IS after 1/2 hour and sue was too sick to join us. our tables were filled with food - triple play, combo fajitas nachos, old-time burger, lamb shoulder, mashed potato, rib eye...

we talked bout holidays, bout the next meeting, bout our kids... we even had to get the waiters to find vp's lost under-garments. hehehe.

anyway, the get together adjourned at 10pm.

health alert for gals

well, i know that most of us religiously go for our annual physical and pap smear and perhaps, monthly self-breast examination. however, i've also learned that screening for ovarian cancer is important because one in every 58 women regardless of age will get ovarian cancer.

in order to detect ovarian cancer in the early stages, gynecologic oncologists suggest the CA125 test in combination with a pelvic/rectal exam and a transvaginal sonogram as part of a diagnostic exam for ovarian cancer screening. CA125 is a substance sometimes found in an increased amount in the blood, other body fluids or tissues that may suggest the presence of some types of cancer. the blood test is used to measure the level of CA125, the most common tumor marker in ovarian cancer. the problem with CA125 is two-fold. in half of the ovarian cancer cases that are diagnosed early - that is, when the cancer is limited to the ovary - the CA125 is normal. additionally, there are many false positives such as endometriosis, menstruation, pregnancy, liver disease, or other pelvic infections, which result in a higher CA125 level.

therefore, the best method is the combination of pelvic/rectal exam, transvaginal sonogram and the CA125 test.

what's goin' on??

well, it seemed quite a while since we all actually blog.

why? is it because of all the unhappy stuffs that had happened? or we are all too busy to worry about this blog thingy?

we all have our problems inside. hmm, i think we can form a malaysian "desperate housewives", do you think so? if you guys have watched it, you'll know what i mean.

hehehe, anyway, now that od's event will end on 13th aug, shall we schedule for another get-together, say wednesday? is that fine with all of you? plaza damas? the curve? or wherelse?

1st day @ work

for the past few weeks, i've been dreading today because i've to report to work at the new company. i've recuperated from the surgery and have gone on a relaxing holiday. since od mentioned that koh samui is not so nice of a place to go, you all should try, koh samet (yes, i spelt that correctly). but, you'll have to fly to bangkok, then take about 2 1/2 hours' drive to rayong, then, speed boat (about half hour) to koh samet. we arrived at koh samet at 8pm... the boat totally rocked. at one time, we jumped so high that our friend landed on the chair and broke it! i'll write more on my blog. just been feeling lazy these few days. wait until i get my computer at the new office and then, i can start blogging and chatting again.

i couldn't sleep last night thinking of this new job, new boss, new environment. it was so scary. gary said i looked like a girl going to school on the first day. but, i think i was braver then... i used to tell my dad to go home when he brings me to school. yes, it has always been my dad. :)

So Sweet but So Harsh

Received an sms on Saturday afternoon, short message but it was touching enough...(my fren billy can be so sweet one minute and be himself again the next, read on)

Billy: Hey! I've just read your blog, you should know we all care about you, especiallyme as one of your oldest buddy, hope you can overcome this depression calmly, i am sure you can do it! Please remember, i am always there if you need me (smiley face) be strong!

vp: So sweet...thank you dear. Never tot you would say something like this. I appreciate.

Billy: Tiu! You think i ah beng ah? Sure i know la

Don't worry guys, my depression is not around the clock, it just hits me for like 20 minutes a day and back to normal again after that. Don't mean to scare you all, I am still my happy-going self, i will be fine soon! Cheers!

Am Back....

Far out so who changed the layout of our BnP? Its nice but take away that pic does not seem to look good ... how about having our pic inside ? hehehe
Anyways as you guys knew I was in Thailand for a week, don't bother going to Samui already coz that place is really expensive now and its filled with lots of indians working there, its still cheap for the Europeans but not for us. So I guess you guys better think of another place to relax besides Samui. The hotel that I stayed was really nice but I would say its a bit expensive and the things there is highly priced not like before. I was dissapointed that I couldn't find VP's dodol, which we use to be able to find it anywhere along chaweng but now none at all. Not even near the beach where there is the 2 famous genitalia stones.... sorry VP I did try my hardest to find your stuff but I have let you down. So besides all these depression moods what has been happening ? You girls better grip of yourself pls.... anything bugging you guys pls know that we are frens and we can help each other out coz thats what frens are for ... so don't hibernate .... LET IT OUT.
So when is our next dinner ?? Haven't seen Sue or Christine or AM for the longest time .. I can tell you my schedule I will only be free after the 14 august thats when the event has ended so then I will be free as a bird. So shall we make it after my event that I am organising ? I want lauren to see the kids as well, she has not seen any of them for ages already.

when depression hits...

i don't know if any of you have had depression before other than IS and moi? The beginning of this 2nd quarter marks the day i started my deep deep depression. Initially i thought it was work, then my communications with my hubby then lastly my kids. Never would have imagined it was pregnancy!

I started with emotional breakdowns, i got irritated and aggitated with every damn thing that moves under the sun, even when water starts spilling out of a bottle would tick me real bad. Instead of smoking more, thank god, i smoked less but my arguements with hubby doubled. My work was affected, i had insomnia and each time my kids rumbled together, i flipped with no excuse.

The last weeks of July was my worst time, i was hit by depression from all corners and it showed NO MERCY. Last weekend while I was in Melaka, i brokedown again in my room, it was real bad, i wailed on and on till at one point, i had to take a slow walk outside the hosue to calm myself down - I should say I was physically unstable. Also not forgeting last night at 130am, i started my nonsense again. Its probably going to stick to me for quite sometime from now on. You do not need an excuse to cry, you just cry out of NO REASONS!!! I find myself pathetic at times, I cannot understand why I keep breaking down and torturing my dear, innocent hubby, but it is just uncontrollable and unexplainable. DAMIT! I HATE IT! I hate looking at myself cry and whine so much. But I am slowly but surely composing myself together again. Though i may seem fine and happy in front of people, but once all has faded, i am back to my depressed self.

I do not want to complain to you guys although I know that you all would definitely listen, i think the least I could do or help as a friend is to warn you all of the symptoms and effects.
So ladies...moral of the story is please be prepared before you take a step further! In my case, i thought I was prepared, but accidents do happen. Don't end up like me ok!

fresh new look

so guys, how do u like this new blog skin? love it? hate it? comment ok.

thought of getting a fresh new look, as there were some "unhappy" stuffs before. hopefully this new face will make all of us brighter.

fair love 2

in my blog, i mentioned about loving all 3 fairly.

sue is right about the time factor. i used to think its that simple, but at times i can so clearly see myself having preference over one more than the other. as for ron, he is doing better than me, he knows how to treat both equally and all at home can see that he is so fair to both. my parents - needless to say - its always the elder one and my parents in law its always the younger one.

most times after work, we want to have a quiet cum stressless dinner out (meaning no kids running so far that we have to get up from our meal to chase them or having to take the porcelain spoon back from their hands so that they will not drop it) so we usually opt for only one child to follow us, due to that fact that reeve sleeps as early as 2130, so you all know who we spend most of our dinners out with?

now, my only contribution for my son is for me to quit my job permanently in order to spend more quality time with him. he is at the age where he requires a lot of attention, overflowing support and coaching to mould this lil' person to become a more daring and extrovert individual. i really do not want to neglect this vital growing up period.

i think in sue's case izac is still in a "baby" stage, he sleeps, he drinks and he cries all in the cot. but for reeve, he talks, he walks and he cries when we leave him to go out with renee. this toddler already knows his rights and our wrongs. therefore it is more than the essense of time we are negotiating here. so now, with the new arrival, i am struggling (mentally) to reach equality once again! i know for sure this time it will not be reeve who is left behind...

fair love

"mami love you two so much that at times i find it difficult to love you two equally or should i say fairly and now i am actually having a third baby? how to divide 33.3333333% of love among all 3 of u beauties?"
extract from vp's blog

i share this same thought when uncle said he wanted a second child. well, yes, i will definitely have a 2nd one. i love children, i love babies. i dont mind having 4 kids (of course not now, that i have so many restrictions).

but once in a while, i would think - if i have another baby, will i neglect re? will our love for re be split into 2? will my mum & dad & bro love re as much? will i have time for the both of them? will this will that? the "WILL" never ends...

i know all these are not so much of a problem, they are just thoughts, and i am sure every women has thoughts like these, especially a mother of 3.

but i always believe, babies are the cutest mammal on earth. they are so adorable and loving, who can live without them?

so do u share the same? have u have thoughts like these?